Archive for December, 2005

My Dog Skip

Sunday, December 25th, 2005

I’m glad I had the opportunity to spend my after Xmas midnite all alone with the TV box right in front of me. Yeah, I’m quite a couch potato sometimes, bleh! It’s 26th Dec and 1215am with Channel 5. Thought there won’t be anything good but hey, since I’ve nothing much to do but lazing, I decided to watch this movie. After reading from some internet reviews, this show has 7.1/10 rating, let me give it a shot. And who knows, it’s one of the best company to walk through this Xmas time. Thank you, Channel 5. If anyone asked me how’s my Xmas? I’ll say, I’ve spent one night with Kiky.

My Dog Skip

(Image courtesy of www.whv.jp)

A true story based on a novel written by Willie Morris in 1996, about how his 9-year-old bday present has been his bestest friend and greatest mentor in life since then. He was an only child, a lonely one. His has no friends (not to mention girlfriend) and only had his grandpa and grandmas for his bday (as he had no one else to be invited when his mum passed him the invitation cards). On his 9th bday, his mum gave him a jack russel puppy even though his dad was strongly against it. (Clever mum, managed to strike a deal with the daddy - let Willie try for 2 weeks, if it doesn’t work, the dog will be returned). Of course it’s gonna last for more than 2 weeks and since then, their lives were never been the same again, especially for Willie.

I believe every one that has grown up and had deep encounter with a dog before, definitely able to relate with this story. It’s heart warming and it replays how wonderful a dog can be as a companion. Besides joy and fun, Skip has shown Willie the meaning of true friendship, unconditional love, life and death through its own unique way. Through Skip’s simply being itself, Willie managed to get to know the butcher, the poorer neighbourhood, 3 naughty buddies and held the hands of the prettiest girl in school. But of course, life has never been so smooth sailing. There was one scene where Willie was so upset with Skip that he hit Skip and Skip ran away. Being trapped in a cemetary which contained some illegal goods, Skip was beaten with a spade and nearly died. To cut the story short, Skip managed to survive and upon seeing the crying Willie, Skip just kissed him and act as if nothing has happened. Can human do that? Are human able to accept so unconditionally after being beaten and abandoned?

There was another scene where Skip will happily playing with the black kids. Well, discrimination was a big issue then, and the author put it so nicely by mentioning, since dog is colour blind, Skip plays with all kind of skins. Skip doesn’t care what’s your skin colour. Why can’t human learn from that sometimes?

"I was an only child and he was my only dog" - Willie Morris

Yes, I am an only child too and Kiky was and is my only dog ever. Even though I didn’t really experience such a lonely state like Willie did, but my life has never been the same since Kiky entered my life. I’m just taking this opportunity to thank God for sending Kiky to my life and for letting me experiencing her moments with me again through the show.

The movie ended with the phrase "He thought of Skip everyday" :-) … well, Kiky, just to let you know, I think of you everyday too. Thank you for what you’ve given me. I believe there are more lessons to learn from your moments with me even though you are not physically near. But I know you are always there. Merry Xmas, Kiky. :-)

Merry X’mas, Everyone! (Sorry one day late :p but still feel jolly, right?)

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Duality of Life

Monday, December 12th, 2005

"Therefore being and non-being produce each other;

difficult and easy complete each other;

long and short contrast each other;

high and low distinguish each other;

sound and voice harmonize with each other;

beginning and end follow each other."

(Chapter 2, Dao De Jing - Lao Zi)

Today is 1212 …. Well without realizing, it’s the same numbers as previous entry. Interesting and yet freaky. What’s so special about this number? Well, for the past few weeks I’ve been seeing this number so often on watches, car plates, and my own computer clock. Whenever I turned my head, I saw 1212. It freaked me out. Then I checked with someone, does it have any meaning at all? Then I found out to some people, #12 represents a new beginning – a new start. And today I’m entering “the” new day – Monday to be exact – in quite a bizarre way.

What on earth am I talking about?

Through the start of the day, I felt different. I may be zombied out as I only had 4.5hrs sleep but I don’t think it’s due to that. Today is just so different that at each moment I thought I’m going berserk … lost touch of my feeling … lost touch of my thoughts … lost touch of me … Please don’t ask me why, don’t ask me how. It just happened and I’m not sure why myself.

I was busy at work too but I don’t think that’s the reason either, I don’t know why it just feels different. It’s like … if there are 2 sides of a coin, I’m living both at the same time today. I feel good and yet I feel bad. I am truthful but yet I’m deceitful. I was cranky and yet I am happy. I felt lost but I know for sure I’ve just found myself. Hmm … this reminds me of what Alanis Morissette said in “Ironic” –

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you

When you think everything’s okay and everything’s going right

And life has a funny way of helping you out

When you think everything’s gone wrong and everything blows up in your face

Again, life … today is presented so well in this long lasting symbol of harmony and complexity. Yin and Yang. Look at the symbol, there’s little bit black in white, and little bit white in black. In Yin, there’s Yang. In Yang, there’s Yin. Life works like that too. When you think everything’s good, there’s little bit of “not-good” in it and when you think something is not-so-good, there’s actually a little bit of goodness in it too. I’m not sure whether I’m making any sense as my eyes can hardly open and yet I’m trying to be sensical. (Ironic, again…) But, somehow today, I can feel 2 sides at once. Like how Joni Mitchell said in her song –

“I’ve looked at life from both sides now

From win and lose, and still somehow

It’s life’s illusions I recall

I really don’t know life at all”

Well, it’s been a really weird day. I don’t know how. I don’t know why and I’ll leave it that way. Guess, it’s really a very Yin-Yang-ish day today till I don’t know whether I’m Yin, Yang, Yin in Yang or Yang in Ying. Life has so many faces. Imagine what will you be if you are able to feel all feelings at the same time? Hmm …..

Okay, I’d better shut up. -_- ….

Om

Shanti.

1212

Wednesday, December 7th, 2005

Memories were piling up over the last few months

I have no clue how it started and yet it needs to end

Crazy it seems what we have been through

However, they are nothing but simply the truth

Endless emotions, words just can’t describe

Leave me breathless till death rips me apart

Dear life, love, lust and longing

Aren’t you wonderful but yet heart breaking?

Mystifying through words and feeling

Across any distance the mind can ever reach

Rogue - I’ve been and regrets I have none

Infinite lifetimes happened at once

Sonríe porque sucedió