Dear Life …

From The Book of Wisdom Osho

Your whole past is full of rocks, and when you start growing a rose of awareness in you, there are a thousand and one possibilities of it being destroyed by your old rocks — habits, mechanical habits. You will have to be very watchful and careful. You will have to walk like a woman who is pregnant. Hence the man of awareness walks carefully, lives carefully.

And this has to be a regular phenomenon. It is not that one day you do a little meditation, then for a few days you forget about it, and then one day you do it again. It has to be as regular as sleep, as food, as exercise, as breathing. Only then will the infinite glory of God open its doors to you.

So the first general point is: be regular.

The second general point is: don’t waste your time with the nonessential. Don’t fool around. Millions of people are wasting their time with the nonessential, and the irony is that they know that it is nonessential. But they say, "What else to do?" They are not aware of anything more significant.

People are playing cards, and if you ask them, "What are you doing?" they say they are killing time. Killing time? Time is life! So you are really killing life. And the time that you are killing cannot be recaptured again; once gone, it is gone forever.

The man who wants to become a buddha has to drop the nonessential more and more, so that more energy is available for the essential. Take a look at your life, how many nonessential things you are doing — and for what? And how long you have done them — and what have you gained? Are you going to repeat the same stupid pattern your whole life? Enough is enough! Take a look, meditate over it. Say only that which is essential, do only that which is essential, read only that which is essential. And so much time is saved and so much energy is saved, and all that energy and time can easily be channeled towards meditation, towards inner growth, towards witnessing.

I have never seen a man who is so poor that he cannot meditate. But people are engaged in foolish things, utterly foolish. They don’t look foolish, because everybody else is also doing the same.

But the seeker has to be watchful. Take more note of what you are doing, what you are doing with your life — because to grow roses of awareness much energy will be needed, a reservoir of energy will be needed. All that is great comes only when you have extra energy. If your whole energy is wasted on the mundane, then the sacred will never be contacted.
And the third general point is: don’t rationalize your errors and mistakes. The mind tends to rationalize. If you commit some mistake, the mind says, "It had to be so, there were reasons for it. I am not responsible, the very situation made this happen." And the mind is very clever at rationalizing everything.
Avoid rationalizing your own errors and mistakes, because if you rationalize you protect them. Then they will be repeated. …..

Kiky

(17 August 1991 - 17 April 2005)

An 8-year-old boy and 11-year-old gal saw a pair of miniature pinscher at the backyard. Fighting for food, running away from water and hiding from the fierce maid. Knowing that they were brothers and sisters, the boy and gal decided to name them Kiky and Koko after more than 10 minutes of name-picking discussion.

Kiky, the younger one, a female 1 year old minpin when I discovered her. My uncle decided to give it to my family, since her brother, Koko, seemed to always bully her as she was smaller in size. That’s when my journey with my first ever dog began and I will never regret nor forget a single moment I’ve spent with her. She has been marvellous.

Kiky travelled by car for 3 days and 3 nights from Jakarta to Pematangsiantar, the place where she eventually called her home. She has been a great quiet passenger, even though she has to sleep at such a strange place, she knows she’s in for a great journey. It’s such a relief when she found out we have stopped by at some eating place or a hotel where she could get more comfort than the crummy car. But well, the journey paid off and she arrived at my house happily.

My family has never had any dog before. Well, we seriously have no idea how we are supposed to bring up a dog, but guess, it shouldn’t be much different from treating a human … so since then Kiky has been part of our family. We spoke Mandarin to her and even gave her Chinese herbal soup, and she simply loves it. She slept on the bed with me every night but sometimes she prefered my parents bed as it’s so much bigger -_-!

Time after time, there are so many things to be discovered from this little soul. She could sing … well, when I was howling like a wolf for fun, she actually copied me and howled along … and since then the whole town know there’s a singing dog exists. People actually flock at my parents’ clinic to look at her performance. Haha …

She knows how to kiss when you ask her too … and she definitely know who’s the best person to get food from. And that’s definitely not me It’s my dad who has transformed her from a skinny underweight minpin to a small little piglet!!! -_-! Overweight by 3x the standard weight she’s supposed to be. Aih …

Despite of the fame and pamper she’s received, she has never been arrogant for once! She is still the humble and strong little Kiky we have seen when she fought with her brother. She never back out. She stood still and fought on and that’s how she fought with her death. For one month she refused to eat and her bleeding won’t stop too but she persisted. Until this morning, she woke my dad up by making some noise, guess she knew her time’s almost up. My dad fed her some milk, wiped her face … and she fainted. The end ….

She chose a Sunday early morning to say goodbye because she knows Sunday is the only day my parents don’t need to work and able to bring her to the burial straightaway without leaving the clinic. Even at the point of her death, she’s still such a understanding soul.

Thank you, Kiky for what you’ve given to my family and me personally. I’m really sorry for not being able to spend more time with you as I’ve to study and work overseas. But all these while you’ve always been in my thought and heart. I love you more than anyone and anything you can ever imagine. Guess we won’t be able to find anyone like you in this life. No way. It’s almost impossible to replace you. I can’t wait to see you again, Kiky. To see your cheeky smile and nottie pee-ing all over places activities. I even miss the time when I did step on your pee pee as you found a new place to do that -_- … and I never notice. But well, you’ve been great and it’s time for you to rest well and stop suffering from any illness. I’ll visit your small little "tomb" soon, Kiky.

You are always alive in my heart. Love you.

There’s a point in time when everything around you is moving and yet you are standing still … so calm … so detached … so great …

Life has been very chaotic  recently for me but despite the "chaos" the beauty of all movements lie in its centeredness.

Dear Life … I love you and I know you won’t be long in existence. Well, you are so unpredictable anyway. Even long and short seem to be relative to some circumstances. I just want to thank you for what you have shown me and will show me … beauty does exist everywhere as long as you notice it.